Category: Life After Loss

When There Isn’t Enough Snow

I love snow. Honestly, love may not actually be a strong enough word for my feelings towards snow. As soon as the crisp air hits, I am ready for feet - yes feet - of snow.  For me, November should be filled with snow storms and it really shouldn't stop until February. Dan and I ...

Locusts and Christmas Trees

Dan and I just bought a brand new artificial Christmas tree and I am so excited. It's not our first tree, in fact it's actually our fifth! Yes, you read that right, we have had several trees, all with deep character. The first year we were married, Dan's parents gave us their old tree. We ...

He Matters Too

I have been thinking about what I wanted to say about Father's Day for nearly a month. After years of struggling with delayed fertility, I find Father's Day harder to face than Mother's Day.  In the midst of the hard feelings, I do have so much to celebrate on this day. I have been a ...

The Anniversary That Won’t End

In 2017, we learned we were pregnant, however our pregnancy ended 48 days later. Some of those 48 days were days that I couldn't wipe the smile off my face because I was so excited. Sadly, many of those days were incredibly dark. Our pregnancy was an absolute emotional roller coaster, that was more traumatic ...

Restless

The past  few months have been crazy in my world. I have been working crazy hours at work, and also working on several things at home. There were many times that my to do list has made me feel like I was drowning.  I have ran when my tank was long past empty and I have ...