Years ago, I read a blog about a cute little farm. The blogger was talking about her visit to the farm, and the joy she found there. She talked about several animals, the food she ate and time she spent with family. She also mentioned a blind rooster. Since the rooster was blind, it crowed all day and all night, because it simply didn’t know when the dawn was breaking.
The blind rooster literally had two sentences written about it in a blog that was several paragraphs long. That rooster wasn’t the focus of the story, honestly, I have no idea what the focus of the story really was. All I can remember is that silly blind rooster.
The rooster was born to crow. It was born to wake up the entire farm. To let everyone know it was time to start the day. However, one impairment, blindness, caused that rooster not to be able to do what it was created to do.
For a long time, I believed I was that blind rooster. I was born to be a mother. Everything in me knew how to mother. However, one impairment, delayed fertility, was causing me to be lost. I didn’t have a place in the world if I wasn’t a mother.
Several months after reading that post, I was chatting with a friend and she spoke so much life to my heart. She reminded me that I had more purpose in this world. That day, the lies started to fall off. In fact, I honestly thought I stopped believing the lie that I was a blind rooster.
This past weekend, I had the opportunity to take part in the first annual Moms in the Making conference. (You can learn more about the conference at www.momsinthemakinggroup.com) I have been helping plan the conference for several months, but am still completely undone at how God showed up. I am still processing much of what happened, but my heart has been forever changed.
As Dan and I drove down to the conference, I talked about how my prayer for the conference is that God would take off our blinders and help all the women in attendance realize that we aren’t blind roosters. We are meant for so much more.
However, it wasn’t until I got to the conference that I realized I was still believing the lie that I was a blind rooster. I have believed that I am so many things that I am not… but what it all boils down to… I have believed my entire life that I am not enough. I am a blind rooster, looking for purpose, but never fully living up to that purpose.
However, this weekend, the truth hit me like a ton of bricks… Ephesians 2:10 says I am a masterpiece, created to do the works God prepared in advance for me to do. Because of that, I am enough. I am the daughter my parents dreamed of for years. I am the wife Dan needs, the wife his parents prayed he would find for years. I am the friend my girlfriends need to speak life and encourage them. And one day, I will be the mother my children need.
I will never again believe that I am like that silly blind rooster.